Half Decade of Learning

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 

I’m in recovery, as some just out of a relationship would say, but I am in fact – in recovery. After a half decade of putting my ever breaking heart on the line I have decided that I have had enough. And the kicker—

He’s moved on. Already. Almost 5 years, half of my 20s and he has already moved on. She’s 18, works at McDonald's and probably has a tight ass and likes to get laid non-stop. Jealous? Maybe a little, but I also think the situation is beyond hilarious.

Blue-eyed devil would promise the world. 

• He says, “I love you, I think it is time I actually try”. 
• He says, “This is exactly what I want”. 
• He says, “I would hate to lose you”. 
• He says, “If you are looking for a future there isn’t one for us”. 
• He says, “I met someone else”.
• He says, “I miss you. Let’s make things right again”.
• Finally he says, “I never said any of that.”

I am beyond words and all I have been able to say recently is “I just can’t” and that seems to be the best way to put it.  

Well my loves (and possible hates), he has been blocked. Deleted, erased from my world all together. I sat with one of my very good friends and coffee date and she watched as I blocked his number, blocked his facebook, and unfollowed his twitter.

And I cried. I cried not because I was sad or hurt or empty. I felt relieved. It was felt like my heart and brain finally connected and I was completely happy. 

For the first time in almost 5 years I was really happy. 

So now I am really back! Back to get out there... ready to read terrible emails, Swipe right to like, screen shot ridiculous men and move on. 

Wish me luck and check back soon for my crazy updates!

XOXO
**ME**