Here's to a New Year!

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband,

I wish to you all a healthy, happy and beautiful New Year! Let the year guide you in the direction to be the best you with no regrets. 

I do not believe in resolutions... I usually forgot them or are too lazy. Has anyone out there actually truly stuck to what they wanted anyway? And why are so many resolutions so ridiculous?

 I want to find my one true love! (no, no you won't... at least not until you stop being a whore)

Drink less alcohol (because you probably are still hungover from your binge drinking the night before)

I will lose weight (wait... wasn't that your resolution last year?)

Bungee jump (you may want to try getting off the couch first)

Now... What will I do about this whole dating thing? Don't worry I am going to keep the blog going and will be as candid as possible. I am going to do what I want of course... I will no longer let anyone dictate who I should be or who I should be with. I will not be afraid to follow my heart. I will not be stepped on. 

2014 will be adventure and I am ready to begin it.

CHEERS!

XOXO

**ME**

Merry Christmas

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 

This Christmas amazing things have been happening. Rekindling the magic of an old love for one... something that may or may not be a good thing. The one thing I know I must do is follow my heart and that is something  not all of you may agree with. 

I have put off trying any online dating sites during the holidays because of the following:

1. Guys are lonely and desperate 
2. My heart isn't in it
3. THE SAME OLD SHIT. 

What is the same old shit? 

The same guys that have contacted me in the past. 

        Just because you have a beard now does not mean I want to ride it. 

Do you have any other pictures?

        I have 10 that are frequently updated. I refuse to send you titty shots so please. Stop. Do us all a favor and stop. 

Have I seen you around before? 

        Uh... maybe? But if you are so interested in me behind a computer screen I highly doubt you will be that interesting in person. Grow balls, be a man and introduce yourself.

Does it get any easier? Am I doomed to be the single friend forever? It comes so fucking easy for everyone else. 

I miss my blue-eyed devil. The fights, the making up... making out, his smile, his intellect, how he challenges me. But round 5 with the same guy? Not sure I have much more patience left. And I know it is wrong, but it feels so right!

Dear Santa,

I want him for Christmas.

Love, 

XOXO

**ME**

 

Insomnia because of him

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband,

Really? Really?!? Can't a girl just move on and not get texts from you at 1:30 in the morning! 

And now my heart is sunk, my hands are shaking and I can't think. But, my dear supportive readers, I will not respond. I must not. I need to move on. Somehow, I must move on. 

XOXO 

**ME**

Mini update

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 

I'm a completely beautiful mess. A lush. A women who's incomplete life seems to have finally begun to make sense. In this moment, right now, I am happy. 

There is no man behind this feeling. For once... 

But, when is the right time to get back out into the dating world after 4 years was throw out the window? When do I hop back on the dating site train?

If anyone is out there? If anyone is still reading this... help! 

XOXO
**ME**

Food For Thought

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 

I would like to thank a very amazing friend for finding me this poem. 

XoXo

ME

Boomerang

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 

I fell in love. 

I fell in love and then my entire world crashed on me. There is no easy way to say what happened, in fact, it was a 4 year long process of giving everything to the one man who would just take and take and take. 

I fell in love and now I hate him with the same amount of passion that I loved him with. 

Why Boomerang? Well, for those of you to know who I really am, would all agree it is the perfect analogy for who I am with him. The most perfect boomerang. His favorite toy. He would toss me... no, throw me far and just like a boomerang I would come back to him. It was always like this, but with blind love I always refused to see it.  

So with a heavy, but open heart I welcome you all back. I can't promise my manventures are going to be half as exciting as they once were, but they will be a new step into the future.


XOXO

ME

Broken

Well my friends... it's June 9, 2011.

I'm single, back home with my parents, broken hearted and listening to Adele.

The past year and a half was a bumpy ride with a man I learned to love through his good and bad. I would never change any of it... I learned to love, work through the bad and I grew into, I think, a wiser person.

I wish he could see how much I put into us... but that doesn't matter now that he found someone new. That tends to happen with me.

I fall in love then fall on my face.

There won't be anyone else like him tho loud mouthed and crazy and bad for me. I'd give anything to have him back but instead I break down a lone in tears. A year and a half doesn't seem long but it took a lot out of me and now I need to learn to move on and try to let him go...

Here I go again... wish me luck...

XOXO
**ME**

Here we go again...

After the best year and a half, where I had learned to love and give my all... it was brought to a sudden halt. 

Here I  am again... putting myself out there to the mercy of... Dating Sites...

I wish good things would happen to good people...

XOXO

**ME**

The L Word

A post I worked on from April 6th... a joke right...

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband, 


Well he said it... he said the "L" word. After a year of ups, downs, tears, fights, sleeping with other people. It didn't happen long after he got back from his trip down south... when he look me in the eye and said he loved me. Can it be that after a year and a half we are moving to a new level! :) He has always meant so much to me and yes, yes I love him too.

 Update..
He took it back. I can't even pretend to finish this blog and fabricate what happen. And now I am left in a empty state where somehow this man was able to reach inside me and literally rip out my heart. So now I am walking around... heartless... empty. Some days I don't even know what to feel.


XOXO

**ME**

Inspiration

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future ex's and my future husband, 


I am currently watching Julie & Julia and strangely enough it made me want to blog. And even tho the movie deals with cooking but also finishing things you started. Every time I meet someone new on my manventures; no matter how it turns out in the end, I learn something about myself. 


So for now I keep trying. dating, searching... but I guess first I need to either follow my head or my heart. 


Here we go again... hmmm 

What dating site should I try next? Ideas?


XOXO
**ME**