Valentine's Day Massacre

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband,

February... a month that is for lovers, chocolate, roses, exciting dates, and happiness...

Enter my February... a month of disappointments so bare with me and I'll get this ball rolling!

At this time I was still talking to the divorced guy, Mr. Semi pro, the teachers, and trying to find ways to just 'run into' Mr. Dimples. The 34 year old is having an early mid life crisis... apparently me looking for someone to have an actual relationship with does not coincide with his looking for a fun hook-up. surprise...SURPRISE! Oh well... the other fine gentlemen as supposed to have dates this month.

Beginning of the month I went on a second date with the divorced guy... well guess it was more of a first hook-up. After meeting some friends for dinner at a new sports bar I gathered myself together and drove to his house.

*note to self... open toed shoes are sexy but not on icy nights*

Not much more then watching a movie... a tour of his house that ended in his bedroom and then his damn dog ran around the room with my bar. Seriously?! Future exes DO NOT HOOK UP with your dog still in the room... seriously! CREEPIEST experience ever! No one likes a cold nose, hot dog breathe and their bra being played with like a chew toy... I won't even start talking about the dog! ;)
I knew this was
1) the worst "date" ever
2) I probably wouldn't see the divorced guy again... even if he wanted to see me
Now the embarrassing part... because this is a tell all blog of course...
We were laying in his bed talking... and... I farted... HA! Seriously... I am so serious.. so he called me quacks and I ended the night. He still called me to let me know he had a great night. HA... ugh ladies nothing ends a bad date like a good fart... because everyone knows farts are funny!
But seriously... I am a classy lady.

Thennn there was valentines day... I spent it going to the bar with my best guy friend... awesome... some girls get flowers I took a few shots sang you oughta know and passed out in my own bed by myself...

Usually I am not that sad about the day. You know just another day... but then I thought about the surgical nurse who's birthday happen to be on valentines day. I missed him and it is had been hard for me to move on when my heart wouldn't let me. Funny how the nicest guy I had met so far also happen to make me cry the hardest as well...

The semi pro and I tried to see each other buttt the weather had other ideas... and I am not dragging my butt an hour to see someone who won't drive down to see me. So this could be it for the semi-pro... this can't be a one sided venture and if he isn't going to try I am not going to try either.

I also had a date with the teacher... but my dear friends it is almost 1am and I should really be sleeping!

Until tomorrow

Xoxo
**ME**

I was on Hiatus... it was worth it

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband,

My friends I have returned and still have to get you all up to date. I would like to welcome all my new followers from metropolisoflove.com and my fellow tweethearts :)

Let's see... wow we have A LOT to catch up on.

Yes, I did take it one date at a time. The week after I went to see the semi pro I went on a date with a guy I will call 'the divorced' guy... except it wasn't until I was actually on the date did I find out he was divorced. Interesting.

I'll set the stage for his description. Divorced marine who recently became a father and is fighting for the rights to spend more time with his child... I'm an outreach program. I seriously find the most messed up men and hope I will be able to change their world.

There was a pretty bad snow and ice storm the night of our date... of course the weather here never can cooperate! Seriously?! Mother nature you should really be reading this, taking notes, and filling in my future husband! We meet up for coffee at a local diner. The coffee was delicious and the conversation... well I didn't have to pull teeth. I love coffee for first dates. Not a lot of distractions and your can't blame your actions on the coffee. We talked about our jobs, sports, family, likes, and of course the whole 'why are you even on a dating site' question(s). It went from an hour to almost three... like two old friends who had to catch up after years of not seeing each other.

Then the divorced guy says...
"so...you know how I said if it went well I'd ask you something"

yesssss

"would you like to come back to my house...we can watch a movie and get to know each other better"

(say yes say yes say yessss... is what my brain said) You're really great divorced guy but with the weather I should really get home.

awkward silence
After a few more minutes of the divorced guy trying to come up with the perfect plan he gave in and agreed another time. Sooner than later...

A sheet of ice covered the windshields of our cars and snow fell from the sky. He kissed me outside of the car... it was a deep, hot kiss the type when the kiss stops your face if still in that kiss pose and your cheeks are flush. Of course, I kiss back for good luck and get into my car. My windshield was covered with ice so I turned up the heat and music and waited for it to melt...there was a knock on my window and there was the divorced guy I unlocked my car door and let him in. Why not? what is a better way to melt ice then a hot make-out session in my car?!

The ice melted and we cooled off. The divorced guy wiped my windows before getting into his own car and disappearing into the night.

Another date may be in the works but for now I have to see what else is out there. I will not settle.

Xoxo

**ME**

A New Year....

Hi again avid followers, newcomers, future exes and my future husband,


Not the greatest way to ring in the new year...

"If he doesn't text...it's over" well... it definitely was good advice! Thanks friends!!

The surgical nurse did wish me a happy new year and like that it was over. The day time texts, night calls, and the butterflies in my stomach flew out in the form of tears. In fact one night he said we should talk soon and then he was gone...

He decided to disappear at a time when all I wanted was the one guy I truly had feelings for to hold me while I cried... Early January one of my high school and first hold communion partner died. I had all my friends but I wanted the nurse...I think it was then when I really realized I needed to move on.

Here's to the long country roads I won't have to take anymore

....so I moved on. You have too. Can't go back and change anything now and I realized the distance became his problem and his wall is there for someone else to try and break down.

I'd never learn to ride a bike unless I fell off a few times and I find roller coasters are more fun riding then standing on the ground watching. I got back on that unpredictable ride they call love....and not to forget the cliche saying of

"you gotta kiss a lot of toads before finding a prince".

I'm gonna keep on kissing...

So back on my site(s) I go announcing my newly found independent status once again...it's full of new exciting ventures and some old returns...
Mr. Semi-pro (he's back!)
The Marine (of course)
The divorced guy
The 34 year old
Mr. Coffee
and the teacher
....and more ;)

You will enjoy this new year of manvantures...
2009...Dating isn't a crime!!

My new rule.
Don't rule out anyone or single out anyone. This is just casual dating not a countdown to get married...well it kinda is...I wanted to be married by 27 (I'll be 25 in Sept) but I think I'll move it to 32.

Yeah...

Let's do this!


Xoxo
**ME**